Sarahs Weightloss Blog

Hi Everyone!

Hope everyone had a great easter!

On the plus side I took some time off from work – YAY! on the minus side I spent this time off away from the gym and mostly eating stuff I shouldn’t, namely chocolate of course (but also ’cause chocolate is nice).

I get a little crazy around chocolate and so avoid it at all costs - most of the time anyway

However we did stay active and walked at least an hour everyday – we sort of have to since we live a 30 minute walk from the city centre, (too short for a car journey and the annoying city traffic/parking queues) so if we want to shop or go out we mostly walk there and back.  It’s annoying when all you want is a pint of milk, but it keeps you moving so has its benefits.

Nevertheless I was really convinced I was putting on A LOT of weight – I still feel SOOOO guilty when I eat stuff I don’t plan or shouldn’t really eat.  I know I don’t have to deny myself EVERYTHING I like, but I still feel that after the ‘bad food’ touches my lips that I’m bigger.  Sounds stupid I know, but I think I am just morbidly terrified of putting all my weight back on, when I have worked so hard for nearly a year to work it off. I know I have difficulty controlling the amount of food and what I eat, couple that with a talent for making excuses (’I'm not that big’, ‘I’m just curvy and sexy’, ‘I carry it well’) plus being really gullible and believing people close to you that you look like kate moss, when really they just don’t like to tell you that you’re putting on a few . . . hundred – till it’s really too too late.  I know how easy it is to put yourself in a dangerous place and I’m really scared I’ll do it again – without even noticing, like before.

A big over-reaction I know, but this is how I feel sometimes when I know I've cheated

However I sucked up the crazy thoughts, as the complaining about my waist line after a choc bar was driving my husband up the wall, and implemented Airy’s mindfulness techniques (thank you Airy ) so I said to myself: ‘OK, so I shouldn’t strictly speaking have eaten that, but one easter weekend WILL NOT hurt my weight loss, and I WILL be back at the gym and Aikido in a few days – so stop being silly and enjoy the damn chocolate missy!’.

I then waited until yesterday (a week after my last weigh in and a few days after the easter choc fest was over) to weigh myself.  Like a good girl.  The week previous I lost 1kg, because I had been super, super good with my eating and exercise, eating all the right things little and often and exercising hard.  This week with my easter choc fest, I managed to lose 1/2 a kg, I’m now 70.4kgs PHEW!  

How I feel when the scales go down by however much

I don’t want to be the poster girl for bad eating habits, but I should tell you all not to freak out (like I tend to do – very bad example) when you go off the wagon a bit.  Chances are, if you stay ACTIVE (I mean, not hit the gym, but go for a long walk or a bike ride to get to the shops instead of drive there) rather than staying within the sofa area with vast amounts of chocolate, you COULD (possibly) minimise the damage of cheating.  

Of course the ideal thing to do would be NOT to binge out on said chocolate in the first place, but hey we’re all human right? We cannot deny ourselves EVERYTHING FOREVER! At least I most certainly can’t

By the way I am eyeing up another novice triathlon (outside this time) and a 10km run (outside also) – the weather is AMAZING here (for the UK anyway) and I really feel like running someplace nice in the outdoors

If only I lived near a beach . . .

Till next time folks